The Kid In You

The last few days I spent in San Diego. I was fortunate enough to have a friend purchase a round trip ticket so I could visit. 

God truly has blessed me with great friends. I was fortunate enough to go visit a friend for the last few days in San Diego. I had really been missing my home town since moving away about eight months ago. Aside from the city looking and feeling differently compared to where I have been living I noticed something about people. Along my journey, I had left Tuesday early morning to do my usual routine of walking to the subway or bus and hitching a ride, to the Greyhound. 

Recently I have been watching documentaries like The Power Of Now and trying to not live inside my head and think all the time. I had decided I would do that on this journey to not think "what if they try to search me?" type of thoughts. Which is what most of us seem to do when we are going on a trip, we constantly think of all the negative things that could or might potentially happen that we do not live in the moment of happiness that we are going somewhere. 

I digress back to my journey. I just watched everything around me, the people, cars, trees, animals. I lived in the moment and not judging or contemplating. One very true fact that most probably does not notice is that the majority are living in their misery constantly. All I felt was sadness and despair coming off of people. What a horrible existence we are living right now. 

I had my headphones on and was dancing around to music and notice how people pointed at me and either smiled like they were happy another human being was happy OR they pointed and had their face turned up like I was a crazy person. Since when did becoming, being, acting, talking happy get such a bad rap?  That is probably why so many Youtube videos that have people acting silly are so popular. Somewhere along the last twenty years we started thinking that it was not okay to laugh in public, like you couldn't be one of the "cool kids" if you cracked a smile.  

Confession! I am really tired of not being the Kristina I was born to be. I am goofy and a klutz, a little funny. I hate shoes and rules and malls & rudeness...oh and also greed & gluttony. 

We should all just be who we want to be and stop being so fearful of what others think. The right friends will come to you based on your personality.