My First Day After Meditating

When I was in my teens and early twenties I would try things like meditation or past life regression here and there. It was quite a bit different back in 1980's and 1990's because we did not have the ease of the internet. In San Diego we had a couple places that one could pick up a book or two on the subject but everyone kind of just thought you to be the "oddball."   Never truly feeling like I have fit in with any particular group I was okay with that title. 

Here I am in my "middle ages" and I am back at trying this again. I have spent a great deal of my life in churches of all kinds but have never truly felt any sort of connect with what I thought was missing...what I FEEL has been missing. God has always been present, that I am confident of but there has always been some other feeling of emptiness or loneliness that I could never quite figure out; which typically leads people to try all kinds of new and interesting things out.

Last night was my first night back at trying meditating. Thank goodness I did not try anything silly like Kundalini, that is interesting and I do not really have a definition for you since I am new to discovering it myself. I will say that it was...not for the closed minded.

Today I feel extremely exhausted both mentally and physically, I have that feeling you get around the second day after going back to the gym for the first time. I did a small bit of mediation today and I probably should have taken a nap.

I have made myself a play list on my Ipod with binary beats and some meditations with Kelly Howell who has simply the most peaceful and loving voice I have heard. Fourteen hours’ worth of play so that should last the usual 4-6 hours I get of sleep. Here is to hoping that I sleep longer.

Research has shown that meditating on positivity and love actually changes people’s behavior patterns around you that that love stretches for miles and makes every living thing around happier. We should be mediating twenty minutes a day on love. That is like using your break or lunch period and sitting quietly in your car and thinking loving thoughts the entire time. EASY RIGHT!!? So why aren't we? That is what Jesus would do, or any messiah of love.